Today I am 2 years old:… my blog that is. And I’m being transparent about it.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Seems like that’s the norm these days. Busy, busy I have been! But just as I say that I have had a lot of “busyness” and little productiveness. Well, in the sense of connecting to the things that balance me: Reading, meditating, looooonnggg music listening sessions.. And you got it writing. *insert long sigh here* BUT special thanks to the good ‘ole Facebook memories, I learned today that it’s my 2 year blog-aversary! Aye! 🎉 What better way to celebrate than to write an overdue post and reflect, eh?

When I re-read my 1st post, I saw the place that I was in when I started this blog in 2014. I needed a place to get it out. All of it. Everything that I felt. Yes I journaled at the time, (I still do) but I needed a bigger space, a space that other women could connect I guess… I grieved out loud. Sometimes as soon as I released the words into the screen, I wanted to delete them just as quickly, because I felt vulnerable. But something wouldn’t let me. SOMEONE wouldn’t let me. A text. A call. A comment. A Facebook message… Sometimes from people that I didn’t even know, would simply say: thank you. That’s how I knew this was bigger than me. And I had to keep writing. Thankfully I haven’t let my fear stop me. All glory to Him.

These past 2 years, how shall I say, have been some of the years that I’ve learned the most important lessons of my life. The biggest?

Let. GOD. Do. His. Work.

Simple as that. He knows all that we don’t. Even before we think we know all of how it will begin, continue and end. We’ve assumed all that we possibly could, good, indifferent, negatively, however. We don’t know what we do need, although sometimes painful, yet necessary.. and what things we absolutely do not! So I say this, let him do his job and really truly live by Proverbs 3:5-6 will ya? He knows what our finite minds have no capability of knowing.

 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.”

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Happy 2nd birthday Sandiblondechic blog. I love you.

Nikki ❤️