people rarely speak about how it feels to release people, habits & places that you once found as a comfort when growth can no longer be stuffed in the corner of your being.
if you are a creative, this may even affect the way you create—or if you can at all. And honestly..
That. Shit. Hurts.
There is duality in this chapter of my life: I am loving + leaving when I realize I am not being loved well, I am growing + being wrecked in those same parts of me that have died due to my new knowledge, I am beginning new journeys with kindred souls + ending paths with spirits of old. & most importantly I let all of the feelings—flow.
I am H U M A N.
As I discover new parts of myself, and evolve to my higher purpose, so many people have left my side or have had to be released from my inner circle.. even close family members as well. Now that I know what I know—I innerstand that sometimes respecting the flow of things in your life is what truly works better than attempting to control anything that it out of it.
So, I let it hurt until it doesn’t anymore, and even when that pain resurfaces—I lean in just a bit longer until I truly see how I need to show up differently in a relationship, or not at all.
If I can offer you anything, let it be this, if it resonates… nothing is wrong with you simultaneously feeling sad + hopeful when releasing people while deepening connections with others.
In the words of Lauryn Hill, “everything is everything—what will be, will be”.
—Nik ✨
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